It's not so easy.....

I've been really struggling lately with my anger. I was raised to yell and make a lot of fuss when I was angry. My parents, their parents, everyone in both sides of the family are like that and that was just the norm for me. Now that I have children of my own, I see how it's effecting them. When they are angry or frustrated all they do is scream and yell and I decided about a year ago that I couldn't let this family legacy get passed on to them. Instead, I made a no yelling rule in this house. I have been doing pretty well with catching myself and stopping before I start to yell. When I have started to yell I've stopped myself and I've told my kids "I'm sorry I yelled. I shouldn't have done that. I know it's not nice to be yelled at" and they always say "it's okay mommy". That is the best way for me to show them that if they slip up and make a mistake that we need to be held accountable for it and ask for forgiveness.  Lately, I've been feeling very frustrated about everything. It's been hard to keep my anger in check as well. I feel like I'm always on the verge of yelling at someone. It's an awful feeling and I am not sure what is causing it.