It amazes me over and over how great God's peace is. As I've said before, I am trying to get pregnant but this time I've left it in God's hands. Since doing that I have felt GREAT! I don't have that awful anxiety and fear that I had when I was trying to have my boys. Well I struck me the other day. I got the stupid thought in my head, "Maybe God won't let me get pregnant again. Instead he took the desire out of my heart". I sat and thought about it and I said, "God, if you have taken the desire for a baby girl out of my heart will you give me a sign?"
The next day, I worried about not being pregnant all day. I had that same awful anxiety I had when I was trying to have the boys. Later that night, I was thinking about how I felt all day. I instantly thought, "Here it is! This is my sign that I still have the desire in my heart" I just felt awful due to the anxiety I had all day so I began to pray. I thanked God for the sign I asked for and then I just said I give this back over to you Lord and what do you know..... I got God's peace! The anxiety and fear I'd had in me all day was GONE. It was like someone had flipped a light switch and BAM the lights came on and the Lord's peace just filled every part of me. It was an amazing feeling. I instantly started praying again and thanking him and praised him for his awesome blessing.
I've had this happen many times. I'll be upset about something and I'll cry out to the Lord. Every time he faithfully gives me that amazing peace and EVERY TIME I am amazed by it. It really put a fire under my butt to change the way I think and my attitude. I always have a stinking thinking attitude. Like, "This will never happen" or "I can't ever do this" and it gets me in a bad mood and it just sets everything into a downward motion. I need to start thinking, "God is going to let something good happen to me today" I need to start getting up everyday and just looking for all of God's blessings no matter how small and just praising him all for them. God will bless me with joy and patience all day long if I believe and have faith that it will happen. God can only bless you as much as you allow him to. I need to stop getting stupid and just get with God.
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