God has better plans

I found out Yesterday that I am having another boy. I really thought this one was going to be a girl but God had better plans. Even though I was shocked I'm not disappointed. What I am a little upset about is that it wasn't a girl for Gunner's sake. I feel like I kinda failed him. I know it's his sperm that decides the gender of the child but I still feel like I failed him because it wasn't a girl. I know, it's dumb of me to feel that way and even Gunner said there is no reason for me to feel that way but I can't help it.

On a happier note, we have decided to name him Colton. We really only have to buy little things that can't be passed from one child to another (such as pacifiers ect..) and I do have to buy a new child car seat. I checked the infant car seat that I used with my other two boys and that doesn't expire until December of 2014. I can get Colton through 3 months in it. After 3 months, my babies are way too heavy for me to carry around in an infant car seat so I really won't need it after that. I just ordered him a bright green and black convertible car seat. So in December I will just move him into his new car seat. The car seat that Rando is in now will expire in October which is fine because I was going to get him a high back booster seat and move him into that after his birthday in July. 

Easter is fast approaching. Gunner comes to church with the boys and I for Easters so that's nice. I wish he'd go more often then Easters and Mother's Day and sometimes around Christmas time too but I will take what I can get. Our church puts on a big Egg hunt for the kids after church on Easter and the boys always have a great time finding eggs together. I also got them each a basket (like usual) and I have a few goodies in there like crayons and coloring books and things. I got them each a small chocolate bunny too because I KNOW they will be getting a lot of candy from the eggs at the church egg hunt. I told Mom just to get the boys books and things like that no candy. I know she will but I'm sure my mother inlaw will not listen like usual and load them up with candy from her too. So we will have a basket of candy on the fridge that we will be giving out slowly until we refill the basket with the boys trick or treat candy in October. 

I've booked it!

April 6th after church I will be going for my 3D ultrasound. I will be exactly 17 weeks so I am hoping they will be able to verify the sex. I can't wait!! I've prayed so hard that this one is a girl, I really hope it is. I have no boy names picked out or anything because I've been believing this one is a girl. I won't be upset if it is another boy because any baby that God blesses me with is just fine with me but I think it will be a tad bit disappointing because I've hoped for a girl this whole time. But until it's confirmed other wise I'm believing this one is a girl :)

Beautiful Baby!

I went for my 13 week ultrasound today. I was so excited to see the baby! I didn't get a very good ultrasound photo but it's still viewable and you can still see the baby's beautiful little silhouette. I'm so blessed to have this amazing little baby within me. :) I can't wait to meet you Jelly  Bean!

I'm giving it a try

I signed up for Google AdSense. If they approve me then I should start seeing ads or something on my blog and I may make a little money. That would be nice for sure. Specially with a new baby on the way. I have never done anything like this to I don't even know what to expect really. I guess we will see if I am approved or not and then I will go from there. What's the worst that could happen? I just end up writing in here for free. I already do that so no skin off my teeth there.

I do the whole Swagbucks thing. It just takes up a few minutes of my time each day and then after a few weeks I can trade in my points for Walmart gift cards and things like that. It's not a big money maker but hey, free gift cards are still money. :)

I'm boring. I don't have much else to say today. So I guess I'll hop off her real quick.

I did it!

I finally got myself an Instagram. I know, I know. I'm totally behind the times but I'm there with everyone else now. So if you are on Instagram look for me: #steffanygreeneyes

Rough lately

Things have been rough lately with me. Everyone got sick with a stomach bug on Valetines day. We all spent the day puking. Everyone else was fine the next day but here it is 4 days later and Ive still got it. It's awful to feel like you are starving hungry but you know there is no point in eating because I'll just throw it up. 

On a happier note, when we found out I was pregnant, Gunner was very worried about how we would be able to handle another child financially. I just kept telling him that if God gave us this blessing he would surely make a way for us to provide for it. Well, guess what!?! We got out answer. About 2 years ago we were doing good financially. We weren't well off but we had money for our bills and money to take care of things that came up. Then, the new management came into Gunner's office and hired their own guy to do all the big windows and doors jobs leaving Gunner to just be stuck with service calls for the windows and doors that the new guy did. When that happened Gunner's income drastically reduced leaving us just livig pay check to pay check. Well, the other day Gunner went in to work and they informed him that the other guy was no longer doing good work. Gunner is getting called out to do more and more repairs in the windows and doors that the other guy puts in now and they told Gunner that after this guy finishes up the jobs he's got lined up then all the windows and doors jobs would go to Gunner and the other guy would be moved to services. One of the bosses even told Gunner they weren't sure why they even bothered to hire the other guy because for the 15 years that Gunner has worked there he's only had people call for service 3 times on the jobs he's done. That's a great record! So we just have to wait until the other guy finishes up all his scheduled jobs and then Gunner will be getting the good paying jobs again. Hopefully we'll even be able to put a little money aside to pay off the hospital bill for my c-section in Septetmber much faster then it would normally take us. 

I've been struggling with my emotions a lot lately too. Normally, I don't cry easy until I get to the 7 month mark. With this one, I've already begun and I'm only 10 weeks! I don't know how I'm going to stand myself for another 7 months. I cry just watching stupid commercials where a son saved his last Hershy Kiss for his father. I mean, come on! What is my problem! I am also finding it harder for me to deal with the children calmly. Every little squable and argument the boys get into just makes me so frustrated. I get upset and start thinking I'm this awful mother because my children don't like each other. It's an awful feeling. When I tell Gunner how I feel he just says "you're just pregnant. That's why you are thinking ridiculous thoughts like that" which doesn't make me feel any better. Why does he think of them as "ridiculous thoughts"? Is it ridiculous to worry that my children don't like each other or is it ridiculous that I think they don't like each other? I don't know. I just try not to let things get to me because I just can't handle too much anxiety right now or I make just break.

Winter Wonderland

This is what we have going on here....